Feel free to send me a private message thru the link on my profile page. You may also find some of my photos interesting, they are marked 'friends only' and since you are my friend you can see them.

Also, I could suggest some reading for you that could help you feel more at ease with your thoughts and wishes. I remember your post about 'not wanting to play around', when you thought the references in posts were to mean that people did not take relationship seriously. I'm glad that you now know that reference to 'play' refers to the scenes themselves. I am in a monogamous relationship, both with respect to 'play' and other aspects of the relationship. It is possible to enrich a marriage of 20 year standing, we just entered the community in November.

So, write me if you would like a little 'newbie to newbie' sharing.

Also, please know that your reluctance to actually take action on your fantasies and thoughts is the way we have all felt. It takes a great deal of courage to even admit to ourselves that we have these thoughts. I have found that it became easier for me when I met other people who were ahead of me and shared with me. Also to find that the people who felt the same way that I do - did not have two heads, drooled, and were monsters.

In Love and Service...